Missing

Something is missing
I cannot find what it is
but there is a gaping hole somewhere in me
And I can feel it expanding
Eating away at my soul
Making me weary of the world
What is love? I ask myself
Does it matter?
I will never find an answer
All I will find is pain and darkness
I hold out my hand
feeling the air about me
lost
I close my eyes and imagine a had touches mine
and pulls me up into the darkness
But a faint glimmer of light appears above
Brighter
I can feel it
Its mine
My eyes open and I see nothing
Its not as dark
But I still cannot find what is missing.
Is it the light I lack?